Be VERY careful what you pray for...

So, not everyone knows that on December 31st, 2012, I got married to a super awesome man.  He's my best friend and completer... I also married into two awesome kids.  A little girl and a little boy.  I had the most perfect wedding with awesome people with us on the beach... We wrote our vows (some of us more planned than others... ::COUGH COUGH:: HUSBAND!)  But they were perfect.  It was all so perfect!  I mean, look at these pictures... PERFECT!

Have you ever seen love like this!  I can't even fake that smile!!

And to have one of my longest term besties with me... GETOUTTAHERE!

This is my life now.  These three beautiful humans!

Pretty awesome if you ask me... and since this is MY blog... you did!  :)  But all that to say, I pray... A lot.  I mean, if God's ears could be bent off, I would have one in my hand... like a lucky rabbit's foot key chain.   So my prayers have changed though.  They went from things about me, my immediate family, friends, simple things, to things that will help me raise these beautiful babies!  I've never been a mommy... and NO ONE EVER tells you that, it's the hardest thing and that you don't just fall into it and have the patience of a saint.  That's not in the instruction manual.   I mean, sure, they tell you being a mommy is the hardest job you'll ever love... but they don't say, you will want to rip your hair out sometimes.  Those sweet baby angels you saw at their best at all times, won't always have those good days.  So, again, I say, I pray.  In the car, in the shower, getting out of bed... it doesn't really matter.  So, I have this BRILLIANT idea... I'm finding myself with less patience than Boedy, so I'm gonna ask God for patience.  HA!  God just had to love that request.  I mean it has to be something funny for him to watch.   You know, when you pray, you have to be specific... If you ask for money, and you get a nickle... that's still God answering your prayer.  That's all there is to it.  So, I forget this small detail and say, "Lord, you've blessed me with kids that you know I've always wanted... now help me to find the patience."  Well, He's helping me "FIND" it.  I didn't ask, "Lord, Please Immediately grant me patience of that of a well seasoned parent/Jesus."  So He's helping me find it... I get tested at every chance... when I'm tired, cranky, cooking dinner, washing clothes, going to the bathroom... I'm finding it.  I never understood how precious those few minutes of being in the shower by yourself really are until I'm asking God for patience and I hear the sweet sounds of my kids outside the door... "Momma Lou, are you in there?  When will you be done?  Bronx is being mean again."  "No, I'm not, Brooke is lying."  and so on and so forth.  But when I lay my head down at night next to my husband, I simply just find the energy to Thank God for these sweet babies.  And When I wake up in the morning, across the bed from my husband but somehow holding his hand when I didn't even know I grabbed it in the middle of the night, I know that I'm not alone.  God gave me this perfect match and these perfect tests.  I learn so much about faith from my kids... Brooke has more faith than I've seen in a long time.  And Bronx is getting there.  God builds faith daily, but have we stopped to realize he's working? 

So, I'm gonna leave you with this thought, God is always listening... (much like your kids) be careful what you are asking for and saying... And stop and take time to see how hard he's trying to build your faith in him.  It's Amazing!!

{lou}